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i can't wait for my holidays. 2 more weeks! bear with it! after that, i can slack all i want. 
i'm so envy. peiyu and the rest are working at some IT fair and their pay is like $7 per hour while mine is freaking pathetic. can't even compare with the people working at macdonald's. 
the hospitals are just taking advantage of the students. to make it sounds good, students can learn and experience working in hospital but in another words, we are doing free labour. obviously the nurses don't have to do so much works when the student nurses are around. tsk tsk. 
i may appear to detest nursing to you guys but i just think that this whole thing is so unfair. i even heard that the school might just cancel the pay in the future. if it happens, there'll sure be lots of complains from the students, not just me. 

anyway, i'm feeling alright now. i admit i was super pissed with my CI yesterday la! who wouldn't? if she thinks i can't do well. hah! she is so wrong. i'm going to prove to her that i can do better. please, i won't give up so easily. :)

ps: i have so much fun playing with the game. whee.

i am not enjoying this attachment. 
to be frank, i almost wanted to break down just now. this is the first time i did wound dressing on real patient and that bloody CI was assessing me. i admit i did badly for it and forgot some steps. for freaking sake, this is my first time and i'm sure almost everyone will feel the same as i do. and is it wrong if i followed what my lecturer taught me!?  so the way my lecturer taught me is all the wrong thing? and i'm not used to the metal forcep (scissor that kind), my fault? okay, it's my fault that i didn't know whats APIE just now even though you had told us that before. frankly, i have never heard of that word before and i don't even know it exists before. turns out APIE refers to
assessment, planning, implementation, evaluation. -______-
so while i was doing wound dressing for my patient, i felt so discouraged and upset. i was even thinking to give up doing it since i've already screwed it up. 
she even asked me this while i was doing 'did you pass your wound dressing in school?'
thats like so what the shit. your words made me lost my confident. what 'why the students i assessed know whats APIE?', etc... 

and i don't understand why that 5 cubicles need about 8 students nurses (including the ITE) while there are only 2 student nurses in charge of the other 2 cubicle. yes, i know that one student nurse incharge of one cubicle and there are AN helping you but for freaking sake, they hardly can be seen. parameter, feeding, changing diapers. there hardly any other nurses to help. i even had to change diaper alone most of the times. lucky layching was around to help me take parameter. i'm sorry if i seemed to appear fierce to you that time. i was just too stressed.
and i think that bloody CI seems to love to pick us a lot. what doesn't take initiative to call you to assess us.
first thing. i didn't know you wanted to access us hypocount because my previous CI had already assessed me on that during the last attachment and it is signed under the competant on my log book. so don't even say i didn't bloody take initiative at all because my cubicle has nothing special to do! now, i don't even give a damn whether i got a D for this attachment because i'm going to expect this kind of result anyway. 
sometimes, i feel really regret joining nursing. did i make a right choice? i'm just wondering. 
others have 7 weeks while we only have 4 weeks. others can use the holidays to work and earn themselves about
$5-7 dollars per hour while we only earn about less than $1 per hour. pathetically low!  sigh.

i know it's annoying to see complaints from my blog. anyway, at least there's one thing that can make me happy once i got home today.









took like 9 days to reach here! finally, mr postman delivered just now! lucky today is morning shift. 
next game to look forwards, facial exercise :D
yay.

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studying in poly, is sometimes good and bad. i wouldn't exactly say it really that bad but still, i missed going back to secondary school like so much. subjects are easy. at least i don't have to study so many damn cell names and organs parts. i don't have to study nursing history, the famous nurses in the past, as if i really want to know that..
okay la, i know students still have to take social studies and history in secondary school but i don't mind that. combined humans is one of my best subjects back then because i love history, what. 



yes, i did post this photo before, like super duper long ago.
and recently, we took another group photo. we haven't really took a group photo for so long lo!



they are like my first project groupmates. we were so close back then la! i'm not saying we aren't that close now but
not really that close like before.
everyone looks so different now la. agree?

tomorrow i'm having my practical test. sigh. i didn't have enough practice. wish me luck, man.

forget it. i shall move on. it's just fringe what. not as if it will stuck at that length forever.
yes, i got commented about my fringe and my mood totally changed from bad to worse. it's like so hurting when my friends were commenting about it, like 'wah, why you cut until like that? which salon you went?' i'm already like so upset about it and you all just want to make it become even worse.
see? thats the only thing why i hate going to poly. you dress up differently (very feminine), you get comment. thats why you often see me wearing tshirts with shorts or jeans. regarding about piercing my ears, i think i'll just do it during the holidays. because they will confirm wow this and that which can get pretty annoying.
make comments all you want, i don't give a damn anymore. like what my mom says, the more i'm upset, the more people want to comment. 
i'm going to dye hair soon. yeah. soon. maybe before cny.

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after like near to 1 year, i've finally reformatted my laptop last night. also, i cleaned my laptop so it's a lot cleaner now.
whee.
by the way, i didn't do any revision yesterday. yes, despite the fact that i'm having my re-common test (10%) next week. okay, great. now when i just remembered i have to do the fon quiz, they have already removed it from np mel. zzzzz. damn it. i hate fon even more now. useless module with idiotic lecturer. don't start telling me that siti is a great lecturer. please, her lectures are forever boring. even when i was paying attention, i could have just fall asleep anytime soon. i'm so pissed now. i missed out so many online quizzes lately. pharmacology which i have no idea there was one. now, fon quiz which i have totally forgotten about it. and my fon grade is just so shitty now. i doubt i can even get a 3 for my gpa with that stupid grade. -___________-

i want to save money to get imac! they look so frigging pretty!

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nowadays, big, geeky and nerdy spectacles are the latest trend BUT,  you definitely won't see me wearing one. here's a photo to prove everything.



yuck. don't comment the shape of my face. i admit i have a super duper round face which i hate it, so much. 
funny looking spectacles. i don't see any nice thing about this spectacles. i'm used to normal ones. 
i look so freaking funny la. hahahahaha. 

today's shopping er.. can be a good one and a bad one. i didn't get anything today. :(
this top that i like looks funny on me. big and makes me look like i'm pregnant. what the shit.
and the price for a tee from num is a killer. 
imitation ones still look the same what and they are much cheaper lo! i'm going to get a flintstone one next time! 
tomorrow and sunday are studying weekend for me. yuck.